New Years day Robert and Caleb were over one of Robert's friends houses playing the WII.. From what I can understand Robert's turn was done and was turning around. He fell to the floor and screamed his head hurt. John, his friends father, carried him home and said he thought he might have a migraine. Since I get them and they can be hereditary I thought well. could be!! Robert proceeded to thrash around on the couch crying and most often screaming his head hurt and he couldn't see out of his left eye. AGAIN, those still could be signs of migraine. But the momma bear in me was not settled at all so I packed him up and took him to the emergency room. Went to one hospital (and I will not name it so please do not ask) waited outside for 5 minutes in their ER circle waiting for someone to come help me get him out of the car. I went back in 3 times looking for help. (I have a hernia and can't lift him up and he was dead weight and by then couldn't move his left side or feel his left side)
Anyway when I walked out the 3rd time to the car to be with him he was screaming like I have never heard him scream before. My soul went cold and I immediately got calm. Now me being calm is not a common thing all I can say is the Holy Spirit took over at that point. I said alright buddy hold tight we are going somewhere else. I closed up the car and drove 80 miles an hour down the Katy Freeway to Texas Children's Hospital West Houston Campus. I will stop here and say THEY ARE GREAT!!!!!! I LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE WHO TOUCHED OUR LIFE IN A PHYSICAL AND NOT SO PHYSICAL WAY THERE. I went in and told them the same thing I told the other ER person at the other hospital and as I was walking out to the car an attendant was followed out by a nurse and an aid right behind me with a wheelchair.
We opened the door and Robert was not very responsive at all and he had thrown up in the car. They took him right in started to work on him. When they could get him to open his eyes and respond he was angry/mean/evil and some of the things coming out of his mouth shocked me.. didn't know he know those things really.. and I said to the MD and nurse that is NOT my son.
They took him for a Ct scan and they came out and rushed him to the critical area of the ER. The doctor pulled me aside and told me he had a cerebral bleed that was pretty bad and they were going to transfer him to the main campus downtown in the med center. While she was talking to me he became completely unresponsive and they now had to put him on a ventilator. They were actually quite amazed I was still in the room and not falling apart. God was there the whole time with me. I could feel him holding my heart and telling me He was in control and to trust him. I would go in the hall once in a while and break down but if I was in the room I was the rock I had to be for Robert. They finally got him stable enough to put him and I in an ambulance. The ER MD at that campus had told me if I had waited 2 more minutes either way he would be dead. That broke me in two.
I got a call from the Neurosurgeon at the main campus while in route. He told me things were pretty bad and he could die so plans of doing another Ct scan upon arrival was scratched and they would be taking him straight to the OR and he might not get a chance to talk to me before.. so he asked some questions and then told me that the 2 possibilities for this was caused by either tumor that ruptured blood vessels or that during his formation some of his vessels in his brain didn't form correctly and the second one is the worse case.
I will tell you I have never experienced in my life such an outpouring of love, support, prayers, concern from not only family and friends but from people we don't even know. We ended up with about 25 people maybe more that heard what had happened and came to the hospital to sit with us while he was in surgery, support us, talk with us, make us laugh and most of all pray with us. I had never cried so much and yes some of the tears were from my concern for Robert but I knew he was in God's hands and there was nothing I could do... but from feeling that loved!!!
He made it through surgery after about 4.5/5 hours and talking with the doctor his problem was the worse case scenario. His condition is called spontaneous rupture of an AVM http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Arteriovenous_malformation and you can look it up. But we are blessed in the fact that his is the best we can hope for. Most of the time the AVM is scattered and hard to fix/treat from what they can see his is one large bundle. Being one big bundle makes it easier to stop the bleeding and the possibility it will not start back up.
I have to go to sleep I can't keep my eyes open anymore tonight. I am in the Ronald McDonald house tonight going to sleep for a couple hours get up and go check on my baby... Thank you all for praying and thinking and loving us near and far.!!
God says in His word He is there through everything with us. How hard it is to say "Lord, I know you are here and I am not in control but you are so here take it, take this from me and take care of it." Not an easy thing to do.
Today no matter what it is that has your heart in shattered tatters, has your life in a pile of pieces in front of you. Remember God is there. God knew what would happen way before you were meant to be. God has a plan for you. Take a chance and give it all back to God you just might be amazed at what is in store.
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. John 14:1-3 NIV
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
John 14:26-28 NIV
